Jesus create in me a clean heart...

2010-12-29T10:07:00.000-08:00

Jesus,

In Proverbs there is a prayer that I found to be so fitting for myself it's about not wanting to be rich or poor rather having everything to suppy my needs, and to have your help to never lie and ultimatley to not fall into sin, and Father this is my prayer to you. I just want you to keep me in a place where I remain broken and humble. If I ever get to a place where I start to look down and judge others I pray that you would bring me to my knees and to remember where I once was. It's so easy to look at someone else and pick out all their flaws and see everything that they are doing wrong, but it's not always easy looking into the mirror and admitting your own wrong and focus more on fixing your own problems and the little things that you could be changing about yourself. I am so guilty of being this person, and I want to lay this down and I want to see people through your eyes. I am in no position to judge anyone or to talk badly about anyone I do not know where I get off...Its so funny how when you go through something and once you have "overcome" this obstacle you sort of feel like it's going to smooth sailing from there on out, well I did. I didn't realize how much change in me really needed to take place its like as soon as I discover one thing here comes another. I'm determined to let you fix all the broken parts of me and get rid of and replace things that should not be apart of me and things you want me to have that I lack, but it's so hard sometimes to "let go and let God" I think this part of our relationship is the hardest part for me. I have to once again trust my invisible God with my pain and fears and trust that you will be there for me and restore, heal, and renew me. But I'm desperate. I am desperate for you I'm desperate to become the woman that you have put me on is earth to be, I'm desperate to be the wife and mother that you want me to be I'm desperate to live my purpose. I'm desperate to know you I'm desperate for you to reveal yourself to me in every way, I'm desperate to lay me down and let you have your way with me. As hard as it is I am deserate to die to my own selfish desires so that , uou can live in me. I am desperate to do something big for you Jesus to be completely sold out for you and live a life that is pleasing to you Lord, and to not sin against you...This is my heart, these are my desires this is my prayer, that you would create in me a clean heart, a sprirt of meekness, that I would decrease so that you can increase, that you supply me my family not with poverty nor with wealth but just enough to supply all of our needs, and that you would keep me in all my ways, keep me out of sin, delivering me from temptation and any every sin agianst you. In Jesus' name I pray that your complete will, will be done in my life. Amen.

Love,
Nicole

I am Dust

Jesus create in me a clean heart...